...I have decided.

Ah.

I'm with Zodi. I kickbox myself...and it really helps get the anger out.

I think you could need to abreact on something. Maybe start to some kind of sport where you can hit and scream all you want. Something like kickboxing or karate... I don't know. Wish I could be there and help you.

We went for a walk yesterday. My brother and my dad and me. My brother ended up scream-crying into my ears. Danggit. I wish I had a forest.

Try to go for a walk and get some fresh air it always help me. When I'm sad or angry I go up to a special place I have in the forest, where I climb trees, yell and sing and just sit and listen to the little stream. Now I don't know if you live in a city, but going for a walk is always good

I have decided to give up all creativity and mayhaps joy. I disagree with my *ahem* more serious side on this one. I want to be creative, but in RL my ideas end up with my mother sending me storming to my room, my brother screaming or crying, "She hit me!" and my father yelling full blast to either of us; me or my brother. I wish I never was born with ADHD. It just maked things harder. I hate being uncreative and serious, I'd rather have a blast instead. But I might have to give up all the emotions. Might even have to give up laughing and smiling all together. I can't live like this anymore. One day I will blow up and destroy everyone. The pressure building up in my heart...ooh. Sometimes I think I just need to scream out all my anger, to refresh myself anew...to be STILL creative. Maybe I should do that. Hah, like I'd find a place where my mother wouldn't murder me if I did scream it all out... and what if I wasn't satisfied?